you know what, i am free now. this is my end semester break, i have 3 - 5 months before graduation. it is nice to go back my hometown but i have no super happiness of going back. it is a so - so experience after 3 years studying. my first till third semesters where i felt, 'its great to be back'...
till now, its so so.
i feel empty. it is hard to admit, holiday is worst than my studying months. i knew i have to do something. in days, i humble myself to accept church to fill the holes i had. but, some - are unable to give what you expecting. i expect peace, they' give me anxieties. i expect love, they' give me hatred. only at this place - at my place.
non at others that i have been.
there are a people who preached, prayers are the only medicine. some people rather decline any medical treatments and bow and kneel down, and ask the creator healings that they believe will soon reach them.
my heart speaks otherwise. i do at somepoint, believe in prayers - but what if the God sent to earth doctors too? that's a big smack on his face. at somepoint, you should think straight. if the answers that you search for lies infront of you - smack your mind into reality. unless, there are no answers.
till now, its so so.
i feel empty. it is hard to admit, holiday is worst than my studying months. i knew i have to do something. in days, i humble myself to accept church to fill the holes i had. but, some - are unable to give what you expecting. i expect peace, they' give me anxieties. i expect love, they' give me hatred. only at this place - at my place.
non at others that i have been.
there are a people who preached, prayers are the only medicine. some people rather decline any medical treatments and bow and kneel down, and ask the creator healings that they believe will soon reach them.
my heart speaks otherwise. i do at somepoint, believe in prayers - but what if the God sent to earth doctors too? that's a big smack on his face. at somepoint, you should think straight. if the answers that you search for lies infront of you - smack your mind into reality. unless, there are no answers.
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